The anger and hatred has gotten stronger.


I know I should be using this on nearly a daily basis to help track my feelings and emotions as it can help a little.  I have become astounded at how rude, cold, heartless, mean, cruel, demeaning and childish the actions towards me are.  A few times now I have almost reached my breaking point and said screw this, I cannot take being treated like this anymore.  I said months ago that there was going to be a point where pride would kick and end this.  I fear it very close.  Arthur means the world to me and not being able to see him 1/2 of time is just wrong.  He and I are now really starting to build a good relationship.  Little man is growing up so fast.